For the next portion of this segment, I figured I would write about a side of ourselves that many would never willingly reveal–the CRAZY aspect.
If you have ever seen the phenomenal movie, Girl, Interrupted, you may have an appreciation towards this. Aren’t we all crazy? Maybe some more than others, or not that their crazy, but just different, and what we see as different is threatening and scary, so we label mental differences by retardation or craziness? That is for you to decide, but after this, you may or may not think you too are crazy. Then again, maybe it’s just me who’s crazy, but that’s fine.
Some of you can admit that your mind makes you think/imagine things that we don’t want to speak of, because of its absurdity. What I mean is, the fact that our minds are so complex we, ourselves, even though it is our own mind, can’t comprehend? I’ll give some examples. Have you ever sat there as a child worrying if people around you can read your mind? Perhaps you’ve wondered if you have a superpower, but just don’t know what it is yet or how to activate it? No? well, have you ever thought that if you thought hard enough, or wished hard enough, something would happen? I know I’m not alone on this one–feeling as if there’s someone after you or the feeling of being watched. Letting the dark/your mind play tricks on you constantly? That’s what I thought. There’s not monster under the bed or in the closet, and when you walk downstairs by yourself in a quiet, dark house, there’s no Michael Myers or Freddy Krueger, really…I feel as if these are things that people don’t want to confess, but something we may have all done at one point in our lives as children.
Something else that is inner-craziness is when we fight with ourselves in our heads. We hold numerous conversations with ourselves, and that, a lot of times, is where our conscious comes in to battle. It’s like having the angel on one shoulder, and devil on the other. It’s great isn’t it? Does that make us crazy? The fact that we fight with ourselves!? Nah. That’s just the way we make decisions, so that’s normal. Is it? or do we go past the point of just making decisions and really do fight with ourselves. Some people fight so hard on the inside, that it becomes too much to hold in and little outbursts arise and we scream out in frustration. We can’t even win a battle against ourselves? Something to ponder about….
What else makes us crazy? Our actions? Our personalities? Our thoughts and opinions? To me, nothing is crazy, but who a person is. Is a schizophrenic crazy? They hear voices, right? We all hear voices everyday–ourselves in our minds. I don’t think that makes them different, but that their brains are functioning in a different way. What if that is normal, and we are all the crazy ones? Think about all of the mental illnesses out there. With so many variations between things, what makes them different? We are all different, but there’s just a larger population of people that don’t present with anything unique, and whatever has the largest majority becomes the normal. Just because you/we don’t think/feel/experience things one way, shouldn’t make others crazy. Maybe some people just don’t have the strength to win the battles we fight with ourselves and lose all the time?
What IS crazy? Personally, I think that crazy is just another way for people to say somethings unusually different. The definitions I’ve found online seem to sometimes agree with added definitions of being full of, “having flaws”, “being obsessed”, and “absurdly fond”. Crazy is just crazy. It’s craziness.
Crazy!? I was crazy once! They put me in a home. Then, they buried me. Then, the worms came. Worms. I HATE worms! They drive me CRAZY! Crazy!? I was crazy once! They put me in a home. Then, they buried me. Then, the worms came. Worms. I HATE worms! They drive me CRAZY! Crazy!?……….